Mottled Thoughts

I've been pensive this evening. Another Saturday spent at home --> Thoughts wandering across all those subjects that aren't quite visible in the light of day. Once I shut off the constant stream of anime and once I laid A.E. Moorat's Queen Victoria, Demon Hunter to rest, all those thoughts swelled to the surface.

Since lists do justice to thought, I shall craft one now:

• Online dating: Someone smack me. I am considering it again. Now, I managed to avoid the urge to profile myself back in the fall. Remember all those discussions about the Major and Minor Archetypes of the Online Dating Realm? I thought I'd managed to scare my own self out of that trip. But.... well..... I kinda, sorta, maybe took just a quick glance at the women listed in my area. I was curious, it's been a while since I was last on PoF. I admit, there's quite a few women I'm interested in on the site. But that nagging voice keeps resurfacing and reminds me about those first two attempts and how negative they were. Maybe the third time's a charm? (P.S. -- I've noticed the urge to online date coincides with my unemployment. It's a little difficult to hit on a woman when there's no money there to even buy her a drink, though).
• Job Hunting: I'm putting the shine back on my resume and refining my cover letter skills for another round of self-promotion. Here's hoping my strange command of the English language can catch an eye or two out there in the Big World of Business. I'm also exploring the volunteer world. At the moment, I've seen listings for a feminist theatre and the year-round activities for a queer film festival. I've always used the Suburbs as an excuse for not getting active in Toronto (since it's a pain of a commute), but perhaps I just need to slide right in. I'm too young to bemoan distance and travel -- it's time to summon my energies and channel them to exciting new experiences.
• Anime and Manga: I'm delving in there and just about guzzling down every new series I have even a passing interest in. I'm starting to worry that I'm spending more time with drawn people than, you know.... REAL people. SO addictive, though.
• Reading: I need to do more of this. And it has to be literature. As much as I love, LOVE manga, it is sugar for the mind. I have two full shelves of books I need to read/re-read and I need to just tackle 'em when they're least suspecting it. (This will also help me to clean out my room of undesired objects since I have the sense that most of those two shelves will not be mine for much longer).

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Before Chantal headed back for Scotland, she updated me on a gent we went to high school with. Over the past year, he found himself growing tired of Canada and the scene here. Now, he's got a British passport and he's got family living in the U.K., so escape was more than possible. But, rather than leaving life back here in tact, he up and sold ALL of his possession aside from the clothes that would fit in a backpack. And that's how he left Canada.

It's such a tempting, romantic idea. I thought I'd managed to clean out a bunch of stuff over the summer, but, even now, it still seems like so much.

Hmm, more and more thoughts keep crushing in here tonight. I don't know that this post can house them all. I've got quite the series of questions to pose myself in the next few weeks.

We'll just have to see where all that takes me.